Something is wrong...And something has been wrong for many moons. I cant help it that I am sad....I cant help it that I am depressed. Look around me...Youll see why.
They keep telling me to stand my ground. But I cant stand on my own feet let alone stand my ground. I have constant migraines because I am so stressed out about so many things. There is so much static in my head and thats probably why I cant sleep and when i DO fall asleep, I jump wide awake...I am scared to just rest.
There is just too many things that frighten me lately....Theres actual chills that go down my spine. My dreams are one of those things. I am so afraid to see what waits for me behind my closed eyes. Gnarled fingers with razor sharp nails, blood red eyes peering into my soul, and bared teeth with flesh ribbons hanging from them. I know I am not a little girl anymore....I know I shouldnt be afraid of monsters...but when the demon lives within you....thats when you should start fearing.
I dont want to walk down this road alone anymore. I need help. I need a hand to grab me from out of the dark water that I am drowning in. Everything hurts. I hurt. CAN YOU HEAR ME? I hurt. I close my eyes, because the tears burn...and i see myself, laying in the dirt, blood pouring from my mouth...thick and deep crimson. My heart laying next to me in a heap of decaying muscle.
Is there something wrong with me? Youre broken.
Why cant I stop seeing these images? Thats what your future holds.
My eyes are burning but I know what bed time holds for me.
Maybe my tears will drown me tonight.
Please stop trying to bury me alive,
-J.C.
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