Yearly Cycle

It is officially Thanksgiving, so that means its another addition of what J.C. is thankful for...

I am pretty sure I could go back through all of my old articles from the same date, from years and years ago...and I could most likely just copy and paste the exact things here....and make it "new and improved."

Everything is almost exactly the same. 

I am older...Slightly wiser i suppose...

But here goes with what exactly I am thankful for. 

I am thankful for my family...even though most of the time I just want to choke the living shit out of them. 

I am thankful for the minimal amount of friends I have. I dont see them often, but that one special day a month is one that I cherish and that I am thankful for so much. 

I am thankful to have a job. A shitty, poor excuse for a job....but its a job. The pay checks allow me to eat and save for the things I so very much desire. 

I am thankful for living in NY....the one place that I love and would die without....even though 99% of the time, I feel as if it is sucking my soul out of me. But I get to be near my sister....who I am thankful for, even if she is a little dick...I still would lay my very life down for her.

I am thankful to have Adam in my life. He is a wonderful breath of fresh air...Even though its impossible to live together right now...and I HATE HATE HATE HATE it with every part of me, and sometimes it makes me so frustrated and so mad that I destroy things....I am still thankful and blessed to have him. My life wouldnt be the same this year, if we werent together. If a life is even what you would have been able to call it. He is the REAL reason I am thankful for anything during this turn of the year. 

I am thankful to be having dinner with some of the people I care so much about...And I am thankful to have my Uncle Bill.... so thankful for him, that I am going to ask him to give me away, at the wedding, when he gets here tomorrow. 

I am thankful for publishing my book. Even though I am a super procrastinator with the second part of it, and the people who enjoy my stories are getting anxious. 

I am superrr thankful for all the people that actually read the shit that I put into text. (Eryn....Lauren....Chelsie....you know who you are) 

I am thankful for being able to breathe fresh air in the morning...and to have a hot cup of coffee...I am thankful for having this laptop to spill my thoughts into...without it, how would you all read my nonsense? (ha!)

I am thankful for the people who are a part of my life in some strange tie or another...We all know how difficult I am...and I am thankful you stay such a strong piece of the connection we have. 

I am thankful for being able to listen to music....not everyone has music they can listen to...and my selection of music kind of breathes life into me. 

I am thankful for having 2 legs to walk on...not everyone has that either. 

I am thankful for not being blind...I am very fortunate to be able to see the colors of the world.

I am thankful for having my ears....some people cant hear how the wind goes through the trees.

I am thankful for being able to pick up a phone to call my Grandmother...who is many miles away. 

I guess with this turn of year....I have a lot to be thankful for. Even if everything isnt exactly up to par....I still have many things that other people dont have. I am thankful for being born into the life I live...

I am so very thankful for being me. 

Until this exact time next year, 

-J.C.